I'm not entirely sure how a month and a half has gone by since I last posted. Between the promotion at work and feeling crappy lately, I just haven't been too social. Oh, but if you know me personally I seem like it though. Sometimes its an act, sometimes its me forcing myself out of a slump.
Maybe today isn't the best day to catch up. I messed up my lower back somehow (probably from sitting on my butt most of the weekend doing nothing except eating...) and, well, let's just say the girls should understand why I'm in the 'blahs'.
So, why am I here posting today? Maybe because I titled this blog 'Being Real' and I haven't been lately. Why? Hmmmm. Wish I knew for sure. But I have a few ideas.
Time with God - lacking in that area. I read the Bible and/or a devotional almost everyday, but I know that's not really time with Him. I don't spend hardly any time praying and listening.
TV - well not really TV, more like Netflix. Current addiction = Battlestar Galactica. Before that was Law & Order: SVU. It's amazing how much time you lose when you're watching stuff (just one more episode... oh just another... next thing I know 6+ hours have disappeared)
Food - not eating healthy is not good for my brain or body. I feel sluggish and can't focus. Yesterday alone I ate 3x as much as I should in a normal day. I mean, come on, really? How did that happen? I actually had the thought that maybe if I kept eating the pain would go away. I knew it was wrong then, and I'm paying for it now. It seems like I spend Mon - Thurs making up for Fri - Sun, every week!! Will next weekend be better? Only time will tell.
Exercise - well, I've actually made some improvement here :) I recently took up Zumba. It is so much fun! I have more rhythm and coordination than I thought. It took a few weeks for them to kick in though.
Weight loss - I tell people to ignore the scale while they're in a plateau, I really need to learn to listen to my own advice!! I've actually gained 7 pounds since the beginning of the year. May not seem like too much, but it took me months to lose that 7! People tell me I look like I'm losing though.
Perfection - not attainable but that doesn't stop me from getting down on myself for not being there. I think this really is the main problem in all areas. I keeping thinking I'm not good enough in something and am therefore a failure. So not true! Besides, there was only One Who was Perfect, and He makes me perfect in Him.
Whine, whine, whine...
Well, let's change focus a bit. I have actually managed to stick to a Bible reading plan for 52 days now. I'm a little over 30 pounds lighter than I was a year ago and in much better shape. I feel like I'm moving into some new areas in life and its exciting to see what God's doing. Still hoping to go to China later this year. The promotion at work, and of course the raise, have been good for me, definitely utilizing skills in a better way.
The more I am real about stuff, and face it instead of trying to numb it with food, TV or trying to be perfect, the more I believe that last paragraph will be longer than my list of complaints. Contentment... my pastor preached on that a couple weeks ago. Maybe I should go back and listen to it again!!
Thanks for listening!
