8 months!

OK, this is just amazing to me and I am soooo excited!!  I have been tracking calories for 8 months as of today!  And in those 8 months, I've lost a little over a pound a week!!  All this with MS and PCOS working against me!  Not to mention the depression.  Wow!  OK, seriously, if I can do this, anyone can!  :) :) :)

ps - I give God the glory, because I couldn't do this in my own strength!

books

Just signed up with BookSneeze - they send you books for free in return for reviews on your blog.  Excited to get free books :)

Crazy person

New verse to add to my favorites category: Proverb 12:10 "The godly care for their animals, but the wicked are always cruel."  I'm pretty sure I've read that a bunch of times, yet never noticed it.  I love my cat, he's my baby.  At least I'm not so 'crazy cat lady' that I have a bunch, right? I actually can't watch any of those commercials about supporting ASPCA or how Purina (I think) supports shelter dogs w/your purchase w/o crying!  I see a dead domesticated animal on the side of the road and my heart breaks.  Crazy?  Maybe a little, but I'm OK with that :D

I recently found some old pictures of myself, compared to a current one, and actually saw that I've lost weight (pictures are at the end of this blog).  I seriously have a hard time realizing that I've lost weight.  I know the scale says it (30+ lost so far) and people tell me I look better, and that my pants are bigger, but still don't get it.  Pants stretch, people are nice and I have more than 30 still to lose.  I think I can emphasize w/anorexics now.  All I see is what I have left to lose, or how horribly I went over my calorie 'budget' last night and didn't exercise.  I did 100 squats yesterday, just to see how many I could do.  I should be excited about that and consider it exercise, but I don't!!  This is why it means so much to me when people point out that I've lost weight.  I don't see it as a ego/pride boost, it reminds me that I am accomplishing something.

Yep, I'm messed up in the head.  At least I'm honest about it, right?!?! 
 

bad couple days...

So I just haven't been feeling it.  It being working out, eating healthy, reading my Bible or praying.  It has also been reading any book or even cleaning the house.  Grrr.  Blame it on PMS, depression or MS, but I'm thinking a combo of all the above.  So, yeah, having one of those weeks.

Been there haven't ya?  Haven't we all?  Still pushing forward.  Dishes are now clean, so is the bathroom.  Trying to download some stuff for my running program and have a date with Jillian later tonight.  We'll see what happens.  But I do have to say just blogging this out helps.  Helps me be honest with myself, to face what's going on and get ready to fight again!  

Thank You Lord, for Your grace and mercy :)

why cause myself any more stress???

So, I'm starting to think that the whole Bible in 90 days thing is a little bit crazy.  I don't feel like I'm really getting anything out of having to read that much in one day.  So, instead of stressing myself out, anymore that I already do!, I'm scrapping the '90 days' part.  I am planning on reading as much as possible everyday and blogging whatever I sense the Holy Spirit speaking to me, or things I just find interesting... but if I get it done in 90 or 100 or 180 days, THAT'S OK!  (repeating that to myself 10x.......) ;) 


So, stayed tuned for my adventure through the Bible, in ??? days!


PS - also starting a jogging program last week called Couch to 5k, or c25k for short.  on workout 3 tonight, but I'm so excited to say I can run!  While, jog, and for only 1 minute intervals, but that's amazing considering where I started 8 months ago...  also, my crazy butt started Jillian Micheal's 30-day Shred today too.    Geez!

Watch out world, I'm going to be able to kick some booty!  Physically and spiritually :)  ahhh, dicsicple, I hate you but love your fruit!!